Prepare for something a little more personal than the usual content I go for. This post was originally planned to be called 'Stepping Back', but I feel as though I want to write more than a simple apology for being a little lacklustre on the blogging front recently (although I am sorry about that too... ahem).
Truth is, I've been having a pretty crap time of it lately. A lot of things have gone tits up over the past couple of months; the stress of which have caused me to have a flare up of some health problems, too. In a nutshell everything has gradually getting more on top of me. I keep hearing people telling me to look forward to Christmas and to focus on how much fun I'll have over the festive season; something that I've (very guiltily) been feeling even more anxious about. The pressure to feel at the top of your game during Christmas is immense, as is the pressure to make the day perfect for those you spend it with. I'm normally a huge fan of this time of year, but this time I just haven't been feeling it. I'm not sure that I even want to feel it, which is perhaps even worse.
The purpose of this post isn't to whine on about my problems but to reassure others that might be feeling the same way. I came across this article the other day and it was a huge help to me, as I think it will be to so many people (although it directly references depression, the message of looking after yourself over the festive period is something I'm sure lots of us would do well to abide by). There's a real need to step back, refocus and realise that Christmas is one day of the year - a day that you're unlikely to still be thinking about a month or two down the line. It comes and goes far quicker than your health does and taking care of yourself is much more important in the long run. Initially it felt incredibly selfish, but I'm learning to understand what is best for me and roll with it, no matter what time of year it is.
Wherever you are and however you celebrate, I wish each and every one of you the most wonderful Christmas. My calendar is fully set for a months worth of posts come January (with a hopeful return to YouTube too) and I can't wait to get started. Merry Christmas!