(Warning: this is a bit of a ramble).

If you were around on Twitter the other day (@thunderl0ve - hit me up) you'll have probably seen me mention that I've been feeling a little disillusioned with my blog lately. My posts over the past couple of weeks have been scheduled while I've been on holiday and since getting back I really feel as if I've fallen into a blogging slump. My page isn't something that I'm proud of any more; instead I feel as though it's slowly becoming a carbon copy of so many other blogs out there and I'm becoming less and less happy with the content I'm putting up. There's nothing worse than feeling restricted creatively, so I really want to get back into the flow of things and make my site something that I'm super proud to be a part of again.

I've been running thunderl0ve for two years now and it's always been a relatively small blog with a small audience, which in all honesty has suited me fine. I really do cherish the followers that I have and it's been lovely to really connect with so many of you on a more personal level. As my blog grows I'm actually finding it harder to produce posts that I'm really proud of and I feel as if I've begun to lose my integrity a little. I blog because I love to blog - but recently I feel as if I've fallen into the trap of blogging to please other people and fit into the crowd. I want my page to be something that I can look back on in years to come and really relate to; to be a personal scrapbook of my thoughts, feelings and loves. 

Beauty has always been the backbone of my blog and probably always will be, although recently even those posts have left me feeling a little bit 'meh' when I read back on them. I've always felt proud of the fact that I very rarely accept PR samples or talk about products that have been given a hefty amount of coverage on other blogs, but lately I feel as though I've let that slip a little too much and my site is becoming all too familiar. Jen's post on finding your creative voice really struck a chord with me and reminded me what I started this blog for and the direction in which I want it to go.

I've been playing around with different content ideas and focusing on changing the layout and look of my blog, which I've been finding really exciting but may mean that I'm a little MIA over the next week or so. I feel as though giving things a big shake up may just be the push I need to get back on track and I'm really excited to get writing genuine, authentic content again.